I'm new here...and the reason i'm here is that i too am (almost) friendless...I can totally relate to what you said in your post and your situation. I too feel like i rely too much on my boyfriend and need to become more independant.
The long and the short of it is that i really only have two real friends-both at opposite ends of the country...it is rare that we get to meet up..prob only 2/3 times a year..so on a day to day basis i've got my work ''friends''-(people i do not see outside of working hours) and my boyfriend. It has started to get me down too alot lately..i don't have all the answers..or any answers for that matter, as i'm feeling just as lost as you are.
I definitly intend on starting an evening class when September comes around, if anything just to get me out of the house in the evenings...even if i don't make any friends(i'm super shy too..and completely awkward around new people..find it difficult to make new friends) at least i can feel like i tried..and if anything it may make me feel better going out and actually doing something instead of being glued to the tv,reading books & surfing the net every single night!
So to answer your question..YES there are others out there like you, but unfortunately i don't have that magic answer we are looking for....I've been hurt by so many people during my life (especially so called 'friends') that its hard to put myself out there again...as i'm afraid of getting hurt again...so i suppose the simple answer was to just withdraw from the social scene, stop trying and i figured life would be easier without high maintenance friends..and in a way it is.. although there is a price to be paid..and that is that i feel lonely and isolated alot of the time.
So here is to a new beginning for Ellie Sausage...plan...1)Acquaintences wedding in a month-mingle, enjoy & reconnect with old/current acquaintences i haven't seen in a long time 2)Buy stunning outfit for said wedding to make me look & feel better about myself 3)Start evening course in Sept & hopefully meet some new people & feel better about myself!
Anyone else have any other suggestions to add to my plan of action???
Pinkrose, I hope you feel better knowing that there are others out there with the same problem, it always makes me feel better to think about those who are worse off then us.. just think.. we both have boyfriends we can rely on...things could be a hell of alot worse!x